it's been hard to talk to people lately. cos no one fully understands each other or even the lack of communication is making everyone drift apart.

i dk if anyone feels this way before but its like there's so much to tell to smone. but when you start the conversation you just dont feel like saying anything anymore. I really do want to share. but yeah, there's just too much things happening arnd me. i cnt seem to say everything or tell everything.

oh well let me at least write a nice short poem that ive thought a few moments ago

what you say may not be what you feel

sometimes you wonder whether there is a need to stay real

you have to face every single day with a heart made out of steel

which requires a lot of practice and skill

i'm so bored with my everyday routine

ahh man right now, i'm dreading for a thrill

haha oh well. i feel a lil better attempting on this one. maybe i shld write once in awhile.

it's been tiring lately. getting involved with schwork and school events. but, look on the brighter side this week is the last week before my mid-semester break.

I didn't particularly do well with all my schwork this time round. And yes, of course, I'm really upset abt it. I'm gonna start doing my work and probably full force for this last week then, slack alil next week and then continue to work hard the week after till the END.

I've been thinking of a lot of things lately. Well, it's not just lately more of like FOREVER thinking about really heavy topics. This is probably because there are a bunch of SP students here for some EXCHANGE program for 6 weeks. They are nice people but the thing is, they've been questioning my lifestyle that I've been living for the past 1 n 3/4 years which actually really makes me wonder about all the things that I've been always sweeping under the rug.

Life is seriously too unfair for me. I feel guilty when I do bad stuff but, the thing is I think I do deserve to cut some slack. I have enough of certain things trying to pull away from it but, there's always something that pulls me back to looking into it again. WHY? well, I dk. Maybe it's just me. I just think too much. I get tired from all these thoughts. I need a break. but, i think the only way to have a break is to be brain dead.

Hmm, I'm just a lil too depressed here in this post. or maybe for the past few posts too. Maybe I'm really lonely. In fact, I know I'm lonely just that I've been avoiding it for awhile now. DAMN...