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2011 people !
WELCOME WELCOME !
Thursday, November 10, 2011Y

it's been awhile.
I think this semester has been a crazy one for me.
i was always rushing for my assignments.
& recently i just had a nervous breakdown/exam anxiety for 3 straight days
barely could sleep till after my management exam
PHEW !

i've been feeling this the past few days.
the feeling of being lonely.
it's not that I had no one to talk to. i was avoiding everyone.
it's like when you have nothing left in this world that you hold dearly anymore.
my life right now i can probably equate it to nothingness.

it's a lil sad whenever i ask myself why things ended up this way
i tried telling people how i feel but, you know they won't get it
i envy people who wake up and have something new that they are gonna face that day
i wake up and the only thing that would be new is whether i decide to shower first or turn on my laptop to check on updates
it really feels like my life is really at the pathetic end

DAMN ! i didnt mean to be so emo right here.
but, i just had to unload at a place where I don't have to listen to people's comments
and end up listening to their stories
im not being selfish but i think it makes me jealous that they have new stories to share
and it makes me sick that i have none to share
i think that's the reason why im trying to avoid a lot of people
please do try to understand me or at least pretend you do

alright, i'm off to bed. hopefully i'll wake up with a new resolution to my life.
goodnight world~

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