And my assignments are piling up. trust me. I'm really freaking out.

But, at the same time really bored. So that's why I've decided to update my blog.

Things are going fine recently. Very smooth.

I went for a study abroad seminar recently. And it kinda sparked my interest to go out and be an exhange student. Prolly in UK or US.

Obviously, in my field of work University of California, Los Angeles is a much better place to be. But, mum said that if I go UK, she'll feel a lot less worried. In some ways it's true, I mean, 'cos I myself am also not that confident to go to US.

Strange I found out that UK they really lack in the media and communications area. But, oh well, I need to do some research. Prolly will do it in 2 weeks time when quota is back and I'm a lot less busier with school work.

Oh yeah, I know it's a lil strange but it was kind of strange to me as well. I was asked to present some discussion to the class. I mean, usually this kind of stuff is a breeze to me. But, the next thing I know I started stuttering. Like seriously stutter? Since when I know how to stutter. Not only that, my mind went blank and I couldn't explain well enough for people to understand. In the end, I missed out a point that my group mate had to back me up.

Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with me. I was thinking about it a few days. Was it because I wasn't very familiar to the material or like seriously I'm having real form of anxiety when talking to a large crowd?

I'm wondering is it because I've been away from the stage for too long that I'm actually feeling this way. Hopefully not. I'm trying to work my way up to be able to be recognised as a real form of performer and if the next thing I find out is that I can't perform. That's gonna really suck for me.

Anyway, I'm gonna go back to my planning. There's no school tmr so I'm gonna stay up late hopefully be able to finish up typing my body paragraphs leaving only my intro and conclusion.

Wish me all the best people.

janeh~