okay people basically i broke the one week routine to post. sorry about that.

anyway, things are okay ever since my last post. the weather's pretty bearable as well in Melbourne. Tomorrow is the 1st of June and WINTER is HERE !

Do you realize that it's like in a blink of an eye that the season is already changing ?! well, I think it's really fast and in a way, I'm enjoying how time is passing pretty fast as well.

Assignments are kind of piling up but, I'm clearing them up as well. I guess I'm pretty efficient. Anyway, I've gotta start studying pretty intensely already 'cos the exams are coming in 3 WEEKS TIME ! hahaha. Those who have not realised that yet. I'm GIVING you a REMINDER !

Talking about the whole studying thing. I told Zhiwei that I'm not going to join them for lunch this WEDNESDAY and she was like WHY?! . I was like STUDY ?! haha ... But, yeah 'cos I can't seem to concentrate that easily while I'm at home probably because I tend to sleep too much while I'm at home. haha ! But, I'll consider joining them for lunch 'cos I think probably I shouldn't give up BONDING time for studies.

Anyway, for people who are already on holiday, I ENVY YOU ! My mum's like on a holiday with my dad in Bali and my brother's in KL while I'm posting right now. I'm like URGH ! But, still everyone deserve their holiday. My brother's going for his NS on 8 June so he wanted to meet his friend who migrated to KL years back. As for my mum, she's been having a lot of work conflicts so I think she deserve a break as well.

And for POLY students who are going to have their exams soon, STUDY HARD ! You're NOT the ONLY one slogging your way through !

Alright, I think that's all that I have to post about. And people, if you are ever feeling troubled or sad, just take some time off and rest your mind. I know how it feels when everything just crams into you brain.

janeh ~

finally had a good rest after all the assignments.

I was supposed to exercise today morning but, I just couldn't wake up. Probably, I'll just go tmr or smth. Jocelyn and I was supposed to go to the piano room but it seems like I'm too lazy to even get out of the house. I think I'll go tmr.

I have this urge in me to eat potato chips. But, man, I shouldn't be eating that all. So, I'm trying my best to hold it in. URGH ~ But, anyway, Zhiwei and Quyen crashed my place and we had such a nice dinner. So FULL TO THE MAX ! haha...

We watched Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu (Be With You) while eating the apple crumble and choc crossaint that they bought. But, man, the 3 of us felt damn fat afterwards. haha. But, it was a nice get together thing after the LONG week.

My back is aching pretty badly 'cos probably I was too tired when I was asleep that I slept on one side throughout. Plus, I can already feel the spring of the bed already... I think I'll ask Auntie Sue whether she can change my matress. 'Cos it's pretty bad already.

Anyway, I think that's all I can update about today.

janeh ~

alright people. finally had time to blog. Things have been going very very smoothly for me. AND I'm very busy with my school stuff. I've been diligently doing my school assignments and also diligently keeping in check of my weight as well.

Probably I lost a bit of weight. I just feel a little lighter than normal. But, I think I should build up my stamina during this weekend. Going to jog around again but, definitely at CARLTON gardens ever. I think I'm going up to jog near the school. Take in some fresh air as well.

School has been great for me and I'm finally liking this place a lot better. I'm feeling a lot more comfortable than I used to be and yeah, I think I can really call this place home. With the people I've been with, I think it helps me a lot better, really. But, of course I have not forgotten the friends that I have in Singapore.

Anyway, today, I had my piano lesson a little earlier than normal that's why I'm already back home to rest and edit my assignments. I think Taylors' having their examination period so that's why Chris wanted to have an earlier lesson.

OH YAH PEOPLE ! Do you realise that the past 2 days were my 3rd month anniversary since I've left Singapore and arrived in Melbourne ?! Though it's pretty slow, but I think It's kind of fast in a way. hehe.

Zhiwei and Quyen are crashing my place tmr 'cos I'm cooking Nasi Lemak. AWESOME right ?! I don't know but, I'm more motivated to cook here than I was in Singapore. And what's more, I cook pretty GOOD food. haha. (self-praising but, I'm serious).

Alright, I think I have nothing much to blog about. But people, if you ever ever miss me, just msn me. I'm on the com almost all the time. Okay, that's it.

janeh ~

p.s PEOPLE CHECK OUT MY TRACK LIST ! TELL ME GOODBYE BY BIG BANG !!!!

it's been almost a week since I last posted. sorry to the loyal readers of mine. (haha ... i'm being lame)

but anyway, this is 40th post so far. woohoo ! *cheers*

basically, i've been pretty busy with assignments which are due pretty soon. so, i've been running here and there lately. Today, I went to Balileu library to do up the plan. Almost done I shall say. But, well, I was hungry. After abt 4 hrs of going through the secondary sources, we decided to go to lygon to feed me. I bought Baker's delight and sushi and got really damn full.

Then, we went to KOKO BLACK and after that YING THAI to feed Quyen and Zhiwei. Quyen had work today so, we decided to eat our ice-cream while walking. But, it was nice. And, here I am, after all that.

I've not talked to my mum for almost 3 days, I guess. I kind of missed her but, she has not been signing in skype so I had no chance to talk to her. I hope she's doing fine. She's trying to apply for work in an international school cos she said the timing is pretty flexible and the pay's good. I hope she gets it, though.

Yesterday, Quyen, Zhiwei and I cooked Spaghetti Seafood MARINARA and I'm telling you, IT'S DELICIOUS. This coming Friday, they will be crashing my place and I think I'm going to cook NASI LEMAK. I'm kind of nervous about it. But, I think it'll work out fine.

Alright, I think that's all I can post about. I'll upload some pictures this coming week or something 'cos we kind of finished the quota and it'll renew only next THURSDAY. So guys, wait for awhile.

janeh ~

its about 1 + pm here. and i just finished breakfast.

I was so tired from yesterday but, managed to hold it in till 1 +am. I need to start on my assignments now. I have 1) HOI essay, 2) M&C analysis and lastly, Psych essay.
Though M&C deadline is earlier. I think I'll have to balance between M&C and HOI during this period. 'Cos I just want to get done with it.

I received some good news from Quyen earlier. She FOUND lady's finger ! haha. I've been searching for it for my fish. AND FINALLY, there is lady's finger. Anyway, today, I'm going to cook fishball soup. and some noodles to go along with it. Probably, I'll just cook like later abt 3-4 pm.

Anyway, today's MOTHERS' DAY. And for those who forgot, please, do go up to your mum and say, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY ! I wish I could be home to celebrate my mum's birthday and mother's day as well. But, I guess I can't do that. But, it's okay, I just found out that she treated my grandma to some hotel food. I'm glad that she's enjoying herself in a way.

Alright, I think that's all I can blog about today.
janeh ~

It's a 10.30 am on a Saturday morning. I'm feeling rather empty in a way. But, I decided not to take things so negatively. It's healthier with a positive mindset.

Anyway, I'm going out with Zhiwei and Quyen again today. I want to go get tofu for myself so that I can cook fishball soup. Probably they want to walk around as well today. I was thinking of checking out DC shoes today. I want to have like a whole collection out of it. But, mark my words, I don't think I'll find anything that will suit to my taste. haha ...

I just realised yesterday that the song 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved' has a deeper meaning. I thought it was pretty shallow but, after reading the lyrics, I'm like GOSH so much feelings in it. I just want to say thanks to the person who introduced me to the song back then.

I talked to my mum late at night yesterday and she was telling me how awful my dark circles are right now. I'm like yeah, I have no idea what made it so awful 'cos I seriously have sufficient sleep most of the time. So, I think I'm going to get like cucumbers just for my eyes so that it'll at least get lighter 'cos I totally look like a panda.

I was talking to Maltrish yesterday as well. She told me she got a role in her school's musical. CONGRATS ! but you know, I didn't say this to her, but, I'm jealous. I'm jealous of how she got a role and I, right here, couldn't do well in my drama classes which I always thought I was good at. Yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I get really disturbed on like tiny little things. So sorry Maltrish, I am ashamed of such feelings, really. I seriously want to whack myself out of it, really.

ARGH ! okay, I hate this feeling. I want to enjoy my time here. GOGOGO SYAHMIN !
I think that's all for today.

janeh ~

Sorry maltrish that I had such feelings. But, really, I'm happy for you to get the role.

Ii decided to post today. because i think ive nt vent any of my emotions here lately and i thought i should after what happened today.

basically, my emotions kind of broke down today during the autumn concert. I don't really exactly know what triggered it, really. but, i think i scared the whole hell out of zhiwei earlier. SORRY there ! But, i dk. it's not about homesick. it's just that sometimes i seriously feel really lost. like what's the right thing to do next. I'm TIRED of making choices. seriously seriously tired.

I'm feeling a lot better after bathing. I finally calmed down. It just got to me suddenly. I think it's just been real shitty for me. Things that I thought I could do well aren't turning out all that good. But, I guess I have to face it. Am I just unable to appreciate what's around me? I seriously don't know. But, I hope I can appreciate things better than the way they are. And, just hope that I can heal this whole emptiness thing real quick.

anyway, nothing to worry much, i guess. I'm just being a bit too sensitive at the slightest things these days. I'm good at cheering myself up sometimes. GO GO GO SYAHMIN ! WOOO ~

I hope things go fine for the rest of you guys too ~
janeh ~

What a day... School was as per normal i guess. Nothing more and nothing less. Zhiwei and I went to safeway to get our groceries. I bought only 3 items today. 'Cos there's nothing much to buy, really. Then, we went to Baker's Delight to get ourselves something from the bakery. But, Zhiwei's not a flour person so she wasn't all like into it like I did. haha.

I have to hand in my EAP essay tmr. Finally, one down and more to go. I'm just trying to cope with everything now. And it's coming pretty okay, for now. Came home, and yx suddenly wanted to webcam so I was like okay... It was weird with all his classmates and stuff. But yeah, we've not seen each other for ages. So I'm just going along with it.

Anyway, I think I'm going to do my M&C essay alr. I've been doing it for ages just to find so many flaws in it. So, I'm like damn frustrated right now. Better finish it and read up on the HOI stuff too. I guess that's about it.

janeh ~

I thought that it was just me at first. But, who knows I'm just the second one. It's hard you know if you keep doing this to me. The hope you keep giving me. It's just too much sometimes. Bt yeah, I get it. I'm no different, I guess.

Iron Man 2 was just simply awesome. The whole technology thing. oh my... But, I thought in terms of story build up the first one was better. Indeed Robert Downey Jr. is an awesome actor & he's hot. Zhiwei was telling me how he's not hot 'cos he's old. It's not his age that matters, girl. What's HOT about him is his AWESOME acting skills he pulled off for the show.

But, anyway, it's worth watching. Those who don't get it, just watch it for the sake of watching it. It's really awesome. And stay until after the credits, they are introducing a new character, THOR ! Another movie which is totally gonna be awesome. You know, I think I'm going to pick up reading marvel comics. It's pretty interesting and it's not hard to get while you're here rather than in Singapore.

Anyway, Zhiwei and I had a GREAT time yesterday. We went to Old Town Kopitiam and I ordered GRASS JELLY cincau. The taste was so nostalgic. Zhiwei and I then decided to share Goreng Pisang. It was really very very SWEET 'cos they kind of put honey on it. Strange but, true... But, still it tasted like goreng pisang and that's all that I needed. haha. They also have like Nasi Kandar, Roti Prata etc. I would probably head down with Zhiwei again to eat there.

But, before we went to the kopitiam, there was this whole ZOMBIE march thing. I thought it totally looked like Left For Dead. haha. But, it was damn creepy... 'Cos we had like some people screaming at our faces. And they had all this red bloody thing and they made some stuff that made it look like we can see their ribcage and stuff. It was seriously DAMN creepy.

Then, we went to Federation Square to go for the Jazz Festival Showcase thing. I thought I really like the last performer Mulatu Astatke. It was more upbeat and livelier type of jazz which I thought was my type of jazz.

After that, we went to meet up with Zhiwei's classmates and turn out that I knew some of her classmates. haha. They were very very friendly towards me so I fitted in alright there. After the movie, Zhiwei and her classmates wanted to head to Max Brenner so I decided to go off probably because I was quite tired. So, I went off and did my stuff at home. And slept pretty earlier than normal 'cos I was seriously pretty tired.

So, yeah, that's all about it.
janeh ~

hey guys ! it's been awhile since i last posted. I was pretty busy with things and also I was just a lil lazy to post.

the week felt alil shorter probably because on Monday it was ANZAC day and so, it was a public holiday. School was as per normal, I guess. Only, there are much more stuff to do like essays, this that.

about my piano, I need to get a bit more motivation to push myself to practice or actually even play. I can feel the pieces but, it's just that the feelings just can't enter mine. I get this agitated feeling sometimes when I just don't get it. But, anyway I decided to get the score for my third piece here. It's just $15.95 so I thought it was a pretty good price to go with, rather than asking my mum to run around the place to get my music score for me.

Oh yah, guys, recently Quyen, Zhiwei and me made HOME-MADE TOM YAM ! It was so delicious. We ate such a hearty meal. Thought the fish was a little crushed in the soup, it was still great. It's like going to MAGIC WOK (for those who've been there, I'm sure you know how awesome their TOM YAM is). Yeah, I had a nice meal with them.

Zhiwei and I are going to the city today 'cos I want to get my score and we are going to a JAZZ showcase at Federation Square and I don't know walk around for a bit. This is because... later at night... we are WATCHING IRON MAN 2 !!!!! OMG !! I'm seriously very very VERY VERY EXCITED ! We are going with her EAP classmates. Though, I don't know any of her EAP classmates, I'm just going because I just want to watch the show. Actually, honestly, I kind of begged her to bring me along... pitiful, right?!...

But, I'm so glad she's bringing me along. I think more of like feeling VERY BLESSED ! haha ! Iron Man 2 is going to be so awesome so I seriously need to watch it. But, people, please don't feel left out that we didn't call you guys... This is PURELY because she's going with her EAP classmates, she doesn't want to make things awkward by calling more people and I don't think it's nice of me to call more people too ... PLUS her EAP classmate already booked the ticket for both of us. But, if you're going to watch Iron Man 2, you can just call me along. I can watch it as MANY times as I want because it's worth my money. I'm so sure of it ! HAHA !

Okay, so basically, I'm very excited for the show. I have this nervous feeling in me also. haha. okay enough of that. I hope everyone has a nice and enjoyable day planned ahead for them. I shall post up some pictures if I get to take some. hehe.

janeh ~