I'm in school currently 'cos I had to print my HOI question.

man. I'm seriously damn guilty today 'cos I slept in for Psych class & woke up at like 10.25 am.
I just went for M&C today. But, I'm seriously guilty about skipping. The reason for skipping is seriously unacceptable. Seriously, I'm nt trying to be a goody goody or what just that I just wanted to be doing things right while I'm here. damn.

anyway, I received all my results & I did well for most of my exams. here's the list.

Literature: 18/20
HOI: 17/20
EAP: 19/20
Psychology: 79.5 %
M&C: -essay: 8.5/10
-exam: 116/120

I did well for most of it. But, damn, my psych sucks like shit. I'm, really disappointed in it. I really am. PLUS, I skipped class today. Damn, I think I need to confess to my mum about this to make me feel better. I deserve some scolding to really feel better.

With all of this skipping, I'm so going to study a lot during this weekend at least finishing some of the essays. & yes, stop FOOLING AROUND !

Anyway, today's Alfred's birthday. So, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY !

alright, that's all that I want to report for today. Have a good time people !

janeh ~

i'm back in aussieland & today is my first day of school since the term break.
it wasn't all that tiring but, just a little lazy to go to school
prolly i'm still in my holiday mood ...

anyway, I received my maths marks today. & I got 84/100.
I'm pretty satisfied with it but, I think I could have done better knowing the fact that throughout the mistakes that I made in the paper was all due to carelessness. But, well, I'm thanking GOD that I did okay.

well, everything seem to feel like a dream whether I was here before or whether I went back to Singapore during the break. I think 'cos I feel like when I left Singapore it felt like my time stopped there and I started out new here. Then when I came back to Singapore, I thought it felt like it started back where I left it. And when I came back here, it's the same feeling. But, of course, that's how I totally feel.

Anyway, school has just started and I'm pretty geared up to finish my assignments alr. Prolly 'cos I seriously want to get it done with. They said that this term and the next term will be the hardest term as to keep up with the pace prolly bcos of excessive workload they'll be giving us & also it's gonna be time for us to choose the university that we are aiming to go into.

I think that's all that I can report on for today. I hope everybody is fine, well and healthy 'cos I'm doing great here. & please ppl, stop hooking up with opposite sex... I'm way jealous here !
haha !

janeh ~

It's been almost 2 weeks which is really really fast.
& that means I'm going back to Melbourne already.
Time passes really fast but of course I did manage to spend sufficient amount of time with everybody.

There are a few people who I didn't manage to spend some time with. I would like to apologise for that. I've almost finished packing my luggage leaving only my toiletries and one of my shorts.

My visit overall, has been pretty fun. I can say that it was a lil boring but, I think all that matters was that I manage to spend a lot of time with my mother which I think lightens a lil bit of my guilt for leaving her alone.

Anyway, she'll be going for her secondary school class gathering this sunday & I bet she's excited for it although she's not showing it on her face. Apparently, she kind of told me that she had a boyfriend at Secondary 4. I'm super WTH. So much for the disagreement for going out with somebody in secondary school...

But, I guess it's fate as well. I don't think I want anybody to wait for me all the time either. Anyway, I'm not all that ready for any serious relationships as well.

Okay, I think I'll end my post here. My time in Singapore was great in a way. Though I couldn't spend so much time with my friends, I'm really glad that I at least spend a lil of the time with them. All the best to everyone. (:

janeh ~

It's been almost a week since I've been in Singapore
It's the best and the worst week for me, really.

The weather is horrible. The humidity is beyond words.

I didn't get to see my friends till the fourth day I was here which was pretty sad. But, it's understandable, they have school. However, I did manage to catch up with them the past few days. which was really really great.

Why it seemed to be the worst week for me as well although I'm actually back probably because my feelings about going and leaving for Melbourne started waver because I realised that even though it has only been 4 months since I was away, I felt like everything was just too alien for me. Which I seriously seem to hate that feeling. It's like for one moment you think you have everything under your control, everything on your side but, when you are there, you realise it's not like that. This whole alien feeling actually almost drove me mad the first few days 'cos I thought my decision to come back during the holidays was the wrong decision.

But, I finally calmed down after a few days with a lot of catching up and spending some time to think about things. I shouldn't regret anything. It's not a matter of whether I can't turn back anymore. I know I can. I know my mum would understand if I suddenly decided to just come back. But, I wouldn't accept it myself. I don't regret going, leaving my friends and family.

Oh hell, I sure miss them. Even if they are just one call away right now. But, I miss them like crazy. It's to the point that I really just want to spend my time all day long with them. Hugging them when I see them. But, this is part of growing up, I guess. We have to learn to let go and give way. No way will I forget such people who changed the last few months I had when I was permanently staying Singapore.

I don't regret anything because I chose this life and I believe it'll lead me somewhere even if right now, I'm still pretty unsure. Seriously, I love my friends so much that I think I might suffer from some friend complex or something. But, I know people move on. & so am I.

Anyway, I hope I get to spend some more time with them for the last few days before I go off.

I'll grow up. I'm promising myself that. I hope I grow into a better person for the next few months so that when I come back I wouldn't waver as much as I am now.

I'll grow up.

janeh ~