so many things happened that i'm wondering whether i can actually list down everything in one post

let's just see how much i feel like posting today.

for starters, it's doris's b'day today. Happy 18th ! she's legal now and officially older than me.

hope she had a good day today.

its currently my swot-vac period. but honestly, its really hard to concentrate. im really way behind what i planned for my swot-vac timetable. i gotta finish my 2000 words take home assignment asap. and then start preparing for the other subjects.

other than that school has been great for me the past few weeks.

uni's really hard. harder than what i thought. and it made me think abt a lot of things about my life. im really at a stage where im trying to let go of my past and move forward. it gets really annoying when suddenly in the middle of the night you just wake up because you had a bad dream of your past. and it made me realise that im still very upset abt my own past that its so hard for me to let go.

i asked myself so many times why i cnt just let it go. forget about it and just see what's present. i never get my answer. but, suddenly today, i realise that i'm very foolish. i realise that it's okay to not be able to just easily forget abt it. bcos what happened then shaped me as to what i am right now. i just need to learn how to accept it better than i used to. and hopefully i can sincerely let go.

anw back to uni, i took 2 weeks off uni in the middle of the sem bcos i had to come back to singapore. my grandmother passed away and till today still is a shock to me. im deeply saddened with the fact that i wasnt able to see my grandmother the last time but i really hope my prayers are able to reach her. rest in peace my dear grandmother.

im currently trying to lose weight and stay healthy and fit by exercising almost everyday. i feel good about exercising really. and i think im slowly losing weight. hopefully, i can achieve the weight so that i can finally look a little more decent rather than just some fat kid running around.

im coming back after my exams are done on the 17th. to just spend some time in singapore for a month. im looking forward to coming back this time and i want to promise myself that i wont think so negatively anymore and look forward to meeting as many people as i can to catch up.

well, i guess that's really the major stuff that happened. i hope everyone is healthy and well. till i blog again then.

janeh~