i really dont understand.
i really dont get it.
i really dont want to hear it. seriously, i'm tired of it.

it's a total disastrous day for me. & really, i just want to run away.
why do we always have this shit all the time.
why do we always need a third party to solve our problems.
these answers. i dont think i'll be able to get it EVER.
it's hard. it's so hard.

i'm crying my heart and lungs out. but, no one can ever hear it.
because people just don't understand the pain at all.
i can't scream i can't cry i can't do anything.
it's beyond help.
you ask me to fight my tears. i tried. i want to. but, i ask why again.
why do i have to fight it all by myself again. AGAIN & AGAIN.
i go to people for their warmth in their hugs. i'm sick of it.
i'm just so sad. really sad.
i want to be there for you. but, i can't. because i have my own set of feelings.
a thousand litre of tears won't help me feel any better.

i'm just sad today. i've had enough.
but, when will it ever stop?
i don't know.