Ii decided to post today. because i think ive nt vent any of my emotions here lately and i thought i should after what happened today.

basically, my emotions kind of broke down today during the autumn concert. I don't really exactly know what triggered it, really. but, i think i scared the whole hell out of zhiwei earlier. SORRY there ! But, i dk. it's not about homesick. it's just that sometimes i seriously feel really lost. like what's the right thing to do next. I'm TIRED of making choices. seriously seriously tired.

I'm feeling a lot better after bathing. I finally calmed down. It just got to me suddenly. I think it's just been real shitty for me. Things that I thought I could do well aren't turning out all that good. But, I guess I have to face it. Am I just unable to appreciate what's around me? I seriously don't know. But, I hope I can appreciate things better than the way they are. And, just hope that I can heal this whole emptiness thing real quick.

anyway, nothing to worry much, i guess. I'm just being a bit too sensitive at the slightest things these days. I'm good at cheering myself up sometimes. GO GO GO SYAHMIN ! WOOO ~

I hope things go fine for the rest of you guys too ~
janeh ~