it's been awhile since I last slept for very long hours.

well yeah, yesterday, I went to the beach. It was okay. But, I guess sometimes I need to be open to certain issues so that I can easily fit in. You know how it feels when you just know that this is just not your right clique? yeah, that's how it was.

I didn't want to turn this into an EMO blog but just for this post ONLY this post I'm expressing some of my emotions. I'm feeling a little down about some stuff and yeah, probably I'm a bit homesick. It started ever since the whole "everybody's going back to Singapore" thing started. And, yeah I want to go home too. I just want to feel all comfortable and be myself. It's not that I can't be myself but it's more of how certain situations just can be so omg ...

I would've left the trip halfway yesterday. But, I really stayed on for Zhiwei to not make her feel bad. I tried to enjoy it but, yeah when you're just not feeling for it you know, you just don't feel like it.

I think all I needed is some rest. To slack at home and enjoy the holidays. That's what I want to do. 'Cos i seriously don't want to hate the holidays when I've been all excited for it for like weeks. I think it's DAMN dumb.

I came home yesterday and yeah, talk it out with my housemates. I felt a little better. But, I think that it's still there. I just don't feel all well either. Jocelyn and I stayed up till 4.30 am to watch Hi, my sweetheart ! It was hilarious but, in a way it was great because I didn't have to be alone at night.

Anyway, I'm going back during the June holidays. Probably, I'll book my ticket when the public holidays are all over so that I can have some relief. Well, I guess I need to cheer up. I hope things will go smoothly soon 'cos I hate to be in this kind of mood really. I HATE it.

And yeah, there are some photos from yesterday's trip to the beach. But, I don't feel like uploading on this blog because it was just all fake and I don't want things that are fake in my blog. I only uploaded it in my FB.

I NEED to KICKASS !